A Blast from the Past

When I’m Tired and Thinking Cold… January 16, 2012

I just got back from a walk around my neighborhood. It has been one of those nights where the rotten mood has taken hold and you feel down and out but you just don’t know why. I put on Pandora and started off on my journey… it was actually the A Blast from the Past channel on Pandora… a required station for serious Pandora listeners!

I went through a few songs before Bryan Adams came on… Summer of ’69. Every time I hear that song “I think about you and wonder what went wrong.” I certainly hope that I’m not the only one that occasionally thinks about the other person and what might have been. Don’t get me wrong, I absolutely adore my other half and am thankful every day that I’ve found the one that will put up with me for as long as we both shall live. But when I hear songs like this and I get into moods that are very reflective (rotten+), I can’t help but think of the past and go over every detail one by one until I get a satisfactory answer as to why things turned out the way they did.

And then Rio comes on… and Pandora, with the help of Duran Duran, brings a little smirk to my face.

It’s not really about the song (although, I rock out the drum part occasionally) it’s more about the video. Simon Le Bon in a green suit cruising on a yacht. It’s just a video that I can play from start to finish in my head with perfect clarity. The colors help… the camera angles… the splishy splashiness… it’s all fun and lively. It makes me smile every time I see it either in my mind or on TV.

And then we go to Boston. Top 5 all time favorite bands and one of my most favorite guitar sounds… and here we go… back to thinking about old flames.

I’m not sure what this post has to do with anything other than showing that sometimes I’m an emotional wreck who can’t let go of the past and who lets Pandora control his mood with whatever it spits out at him.

Haha! NO! I chalk this up to the power of music, man. It can take you on an emotional ride… drudge up the memories of the past and make you think about things that have come and gone. To me that’s not a fault of life… that IS life!

You’re going to laugh at me (or maybe this won’t surprise you at all) but I’ve tried many times to put emotion aside. JB Lane, the Vulcan. Logic be my guide! I think that there is a reason that has never succeeded, though.. other than the fact that I’m human. Emotions are comforting to me. They are me. They let me know that I’m living. If I don’t feel anything, what’s the point? Music is the blanket that I wrap myself up in so that I can sink into that state that I find so comfortable.

So, thank you Bryan Adams… thank you Duran Duran… and thank you Boston for being my blanket this evening. Your music will play on as long as I’m here!